Hey ho, it's another Monday and I'm back at my desk again. But of course its at best 3 of such Mondays reporting to ELIS to go, so it's not that bad ;)
Emotionally, the past weekend was filled with worry, uncertainty, regrets, sluggishness, lack of interest in anything much, period. To my regret, I didnt even complete a single book! That is really really rare for me over a weekend, and quite disappointing as well!
But activity wise, I didn't waste the whole weekend away at least. Together with hubby, we accompanied MIL for CNY shopping at Bugis to buy dried goods, went to the temple, had nice popiah, visited his uncle, picked MIL from office on Sunday and had dinner 2 nights in a row at Boon Lay. Not too bad on the whole I think, certainly did my part on the family side.
Last but not least, I certainly did something major.... I submitted my application for teaching!! Haha Herein lies the reason behind the blog title, I have been thinking teaching (yes, i should... NO, i shouldnt...) every 2 minutes these days. It's perpetually on my mind. Honestly I am not certain if I can really do it, even Melvin is dubious. Geraldine and KS's determination to be rid of the profession, amongst many others, certainly weighed me down by ALOT. Can I really do it?!?!
But what I wrote in my application is true - I have truly come to accept Marketing is not my cup of tea, in terms of actual skills capability and personal interest for that matter. I want to do something different for a change, this part rings true as well. And something meaningful? I have yet to admit them to myself aloud but I suspect that is probably the right direction for me too. I am also afraid I am partly leaning heavily on teaching because I dont know what else I can do either! Do as in excel and fly high! It's quite sad if I'm still lumbering in limbo at 30... Sigh!
Well the final conclusion is - just apply and do it then! If for nothing else, at least find out once and for all if I can do well as a teacher, or *gasp* Not... But financial commitments are REAL! Thus the bottomline remains, I cannot afford to take a pay cut on a job that will be physically and emotionally draining, yet not even meeting my physical needs, does not allow me to survive month to month or save anything. That would not be a good balance, and it will only serve to make me hate my job later on!
Wish me luck! And I pray to God this is somehow the route I was meant to take afterall. If not, I am truly, good for nothing in worklife?!
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